‘There are people in the world so hungry, that God cannot appear to them except in the form of bread.’
Friday, I took the exam that I was telling you about and I still didn’t receive the result, but I think that I failed it.
Having so many break downs in the past I got to a point where I believe that anything that I will try is going to be another failure. I want to change this.
Since I came from that exam, I’ve been staying at my parent’s place. I was doing nothing all day long. I was getting out of bed, meeting with a few friends, watching some movies and then going to bed again, day after day just wasting my time.
This morning I said enough is enough! I got out of my bed, drank my coffee, took a shower, packed my things and back to my place I came. I had a little fight with my mom because usually they give me some money for food, but this time I wanted to come here with no money.
I want to feel the hunger growing and motivating me to do something with my life. I believe that the best hunter is the one that is starving, because this way he is really fighting for his life. I want to be like this hunter.
On my way here, I stopped to get a new haircut. Luckily for me, the barber (C. ) is a good friend of mine and he worked for free once again. Usually I wear my hair long, but this time I wanted to make a change. I didn’t have this haircut since I was in military high school.
Right now, I have like 15$ in my wallet, enough to buy some food for a couple of days, time in which I have to find a way to earn some money. I said to myself that I won’t go back home until my stomach won’t scream for food ever again.
I’m doing this challenge because I think that this way, I will be able to do my best regarding finding a job that is both good and I like it. I have done some other things in the past that I hopped that were going to help me find some shortcuts but in the end it turned out they were just blocked paths for me.
I think that the first thing I’m going to try is to work as a real estate agent because I like working with people and trying to understand them using as few words as possible.
If you have any ideas, feel free to email me or leave a comment. Otherwise, I will just let my hunger take control over my mind and I will see where I’m going to get.